hope

Hope is what I'm wanting.
Hope that get help to deal with life.
Hope that I can figure out what is going on with me.
Hope to become a better me.
Hope for our love will grow.
Hope to let go of him.
Hope that you will help me get thru this dark time.
Hope for me to be happy again
Hope to be ME again

broken

Broken to the point of not knowing which way to turn.
Broken feeling like I'm lost
Broken feeling like I can't put my self back together.
Broken down to I am nothing
            Broken

lost in thought of you

Thoughts of you going thru my head.
Wondering if you are thinking of me too.
Memories of us cuddled on the couch in the bed.
Thoughts of your touch bring warmth to my body.
Memories of you telling me you love me I can still hear voice saying.
Trying to make sure lips don't move so my thoughts you don't come out so he won't hear.
But the more the thoughts roll around the more I wish it was still real.

A heart longing to be loved from the one it loves.
A body longing to be held of the arms of the one her heart loves.
Lips longing to be kissed by the one her heart loves.
 Mind longing to make memory with the one her heart loves.
 A love that is so true and full for just you.

Scared to say what I'm thinking

Scared to say what I'm thinking, 
Why cause what people may say or think. Some should know I'm thinking. It will hurt some people. But shouldn't I make me happy for once or just keep everyone else happy? Things that I think I should would make feel better but why do fear sharing my thoughts? Everyone tells me I need to but those same people say I'm just over thinking things when I do share or tell me I'm crazy. Should I just start not caring so much? Life is hard for a mother in this relationship who does love you but is in love with someone else. Want change my life and be happy . So I will blog the thoughts of mind help me get the courage up the change my life maybe for the better or could be worse.